Acceptance

Tengok drama siri 'Opah' seorang diri. Drama lama tu. Tahun 80an. Masa saya masih kecil lagi. Its kinda sad watching it. It reminds me that I'm growing old. I wanna be a happy old woman. I dont wanna be a sad old woman who always wants to be young again.

Momma

Oh God. My daughter completely ignores me when it is time to sleep. Like just now, she walked in, grabbed her pillows next to me, then walked out to maid's room. She didnt even look at me, didnt reply when I talked to her. I hope it is just a phase, coz I am devastated.

Shitty

Daughter woke up in the mid of the night, crying histerically for the maid, wanting to sleep with the maid is the BEST thing ever happen to a parent. Really. Dunno who I really want to be mad at now.

Sunyi

Malam. Bila line internet sangat lembab, bila tiada rancangan bagus diTV, bila mata segar tidak mahu tidur, bila suami ke luar daerah, dan yang paling sedih, when my daughter is not sleeping beside me, for me to stare at when there is nothing else to do.
Masuk dapur. Masak megi stail rendam air panas, dan berharap lepas makan nanti akan ada rasa mengantuk supaya dapat tidur nyenyak sendirian dimalam yang sunyi ini.
Pathetic.

Left

Pagi tadi ambil suami di airport. Saya lewat masuk kerja sebab mau tunggu suami & sama-sama pergi office.
Lebih kurang 20 minit lalu dia pegi luar daerah lagi. As usual, kami jumpa sebelum dia jalan, salam, saya cium tangan dia, then dia hulur pipi kanan & kemudian kiri minta saya kiss dia.
Bukan dia yang kiss saya. Saya pula yang kiss dia. Memang suami ganjil orangnya.

Mellow

Suami outstation sejak kelmarin. Perut sakit dari petang hingga sekarang. I had so many things I wanted to write about yesterday, but now I cant remember what they were.

I had HPV vaccine last Monday. Doktor cakap saya tidak boleh pregnant selama 6 bulan! Padahal plan mahu ada anak tahun depan. Maknanya, dengan izin Allah, saya ada anak tahun 2014! Lamanya lagi.